MAF

last year's maf was my bdae. yeah, looking back at 1yr ago, things have really changed alot. been through alot and learnt alot. gotta be stronger.

words do not suffice to describe the joy i felt when i saw u smile yesterday when u saw it. something which i long to have, and for someone to do for me too. how ironical, because last yr exactly on maf was my bdae. though i did not have you by my side last yr, here we are again together a year later.

i rem my bdae last yr well, though not all memories abt it were pleasant. things tt i would rather forget but are kept at the back of my head. on the brighter side, those sad stuff are no longer around, and today i'm a much happier person cf last year.

i think for the years to come, maf will always be a day that bears special meaning for me. but this year to be able to spend it with you is really more than i could ask for. even that short hour when we just sat in the car w/o a word, thoughts were going through my head at what the future would bring and whether there was a future at all. and i was happy to spend even tt moment w you, really hoping time owuld stop and the night would never end. yeah... at tt pt i realised what those lyricists were talking abt.

looking behind a windscreen at those kids having fun w their lanterns happily w their parents, i realise tt the time to grow up and let go may be coming. but i am afraid and dread the day when it comes. i only pray tt i'll be strong enough when it finally comes.