happy birthday to me

it's the time of the yr again when my bdae is around the corner. and i like this time when loved ones around me do nice stuff for me to make me feel special. hehe. yest was cg, and it was good. the message and sharing was good and i really could identify with what j was saying and it did help me pinpoint problems a problem tt i have. maybe it may be the real reason why i'm not attending church reg now.

but i was so happy when they started singing the bdae song and brought the cake in. i was so so touched. and as i recall, this is the first tim my cg has ever celebrated my bdae for me. all the yrs tt i was in church, i've never had my cake and eat it. yeah, literal and metaphorically. somehow someway my bdae would be missed. every year.

thoughts were running through my head as they sang my bdae song. and these were so inline with the thoughts i was ruminating through during the msg. yeah... glad i went for cg yesterday. it was good.

today after lecture went out with andre/wm/jonchia/darryl for lunch. well, the LT gang wanted to ask me out for lunch too but i thought they were going off and last wk sijin and hyq were saying tt they had stuff on this sat, so i agreed to go out w the prior. haha, and i'm glad i did too cause i enjoyed myself. they Rx me to c-jade.

come to think of it, ke also asked me out for lunch but we had to meet some other time instead. sheesh, how i wish i could go out with ALL of u guys at the same time!!

got some presents from close friends today too. tie from jc pple, shirt and belt from LT gang, shirt from cg yesyterday night.

later i'll be meeting pri sch pple (ck&lh) for dinner at novena. tml having special dinner. hehe. hope things will be great. :)

MAF

last year's maf was my bdae. yeah, looking back at 1yr ago, things have really changed alot. been through alot and learnt alot. gotta be stronger.

words do not suffice to describe the joy i felt when i saw u smile yesterday when u saw it. something which i long to have, and for someone to do for me too. how ironical, because last yr exactly on maf was my bdae. though i did not have you by my side last yr, here we are again together a year later.

i rem my bdae last yr well, though not all memories abt it were pleasant. things tt i would rather forget but are kept at the back of my head. on the brighter side, those sad stuff are no longer around, and today i'm a much happier person cf last year.

i think for the years to come, maf will always be a day that bears special meaning for me. but this year to be able to spend it with you is really more than i could ask for. even that short hour when we just sat in the car w/o a word, thoughts were going through my head at what the future would bring and whether there was a future at all. and i was happy to spend even tt moment w you, really hoping time owuld stop and the night would never end. yeah... at tt pt i realised what those lyricists were talking abt.

looking behind a windscreen at those kids having fun w their lanterns happily w their parents, i realise tt the time to grow up and let go may be coming. but i am afraid and dread the day when it comes. i only pray tt i'll be strong enough when it finally comes.